We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Blessed Suffering

by pill friends

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
Rituals 03:14
hope you’re doing well in your own hell sitting across from you and coming down again i hear you say goodbye as you walk into the woods i know the dogs will find you and they’ll lick your bones all clean invoking silent screams as their teeth hit your flesh passively devoured for redemption lies in death i’ll go out later and find your lifeless form put it on the altar and practice rituals king of hell in everyone in the places i go and the things that i see emotionless i breathe your air and learn to trust nothing detached i pray to you forgive me for nothing forget me i’m nothing
2.
alone again with no friends what did you expect from a selfish and narcissistic suburban white trash christ? who builds you up to watch you bleed away into his false needs you know he doesn't care and he'd leave you if he could you long for happiness only for it to fade sadness is the same pain never leaves so don't feel anything it’s better off that way what did you expect from a suburban white trash christ? mass graves in parking lots is where our ghosts met and slept without a care death is our savior rest in pain inside your hell rest in pain you can't be saved rest in pain in nothingness rest in pain you can't be saved
3.
Forget Me 01:31
nicole will you carry my bible it’s dragging me down and i cannot swim above this ground my head is numb and my lungs are shot i am something you could do without so forget me i’ll fade away but when i’m gone devour me nicole your face is dying before my eyes and through the breath of my own lies i’ll wipe the blood from your tears through your pointless suffering
4.
slit your wrists to bleed out slow inside your sadness inside your home fake it til you’re real you can't recognize yourself in anything satan is your master now patient suicide is what you know to feel inside fake it til you’re gone you can’t recognize yourself anymore satan is your master now bleed inside for him live for no one
5.
i want to kill or to be killed i pet my dog as i slit his throat i skin him whole and i wear his furs to school for looks now i feel good i want to kill or to be killed my dog licks me as he sinks into my meat good boy he wears my tattered skin to church for looks now they all know i trust in hell
6.
Not Here 02:35
strip me of my self it’s useless here pale light seems so dark swallowed in blood its sweetness is fulfilled in our emptiness killing us so gently i don’t care all that is still remains waiting patiently to end so leave me to die i know that i’m not here god never cared so why should i? passing through this empty space god never lived so why should i? light is left nowhere
7.
Mall Goth 03:31
goodbye hell goodbye god goodbye sun and trailer home goodbye mall and step dad goodbye flesh goodbye drugs i’m all done i’m so gone i’m all done i’m so wrong i’m all done i’m so gone i’m all done playing mall goth take my corpse and my child too leave me without anything i want to be as i was before just a lifeless form slip a line of percoset school shootings on the tv screen think of the people that you love reaching out for anything clinging tight to their crosses knowing that they’ll rest in pain pull the nails from your own skin and die effortlessly selfish crucifixion comfort in every thought no comfort at all
8.
Prayers 01:55
tears from your broken life suffocate my desire you put the words into my mouth but i can’t even make a sound i know i’ll let you down you said that you’d love me if i would consume your sin and learn to die slow i know i never could i know i’ll let you down your face turns out a smile as you ridicule me tear into my skin i can understand you know i’ll let you down
9.
Suffering 05:04
waking up in suffering same as i was yesterday cold breath speaks kindly tells me to go back to sleep words that no one hears pass through paralyzed in visions of darkness i close my eyes i lay my head down to rest but sleep never comes love evades every thought and pills nullify my restless mind i hate myself but i couldn’t hate you even if i tried hiding in my purest failure i attempt to understand why hate and love seem so different but are one and the same falling out of grace i know it'll never change even if i tried
10.
my sweet lord was at the mobile home softly crying painting nails eating flesh drinking defiled blood with everyone i’ll rise to die again you won’t find my body cause i made poor friends bloody lips taking sips in what i’m putting out now drinking ammonia without anyone mixed with my saviors tears i’ll rise to die again you won’t find my body because i have no friends

credits

released July 23, 2013

kyle schwander - drums
davis cook - bass
abby trunfio - cello/vocals
ryan wilson - guitar/organ/vocals

"blessed suffering" produced and recorded by scott stitzer during
may and june of 2013 in philadelphia, pa

all songs written by pill friends

special thanks to:
grace connell vocals on "parking lot graves" as well as scott stitzer
and sean riley for gang vocals on previously mentioned track
grace mitchell-dimicco vocals on "satan is your master"
nick morrison vocals "not here"
steve peterson for writing guitar parts in rituals
and nicole wilson for reading at the beginning of "forget me"
cover photo by t.j. strohmer

also thanks to our families, friends, and everyone that has supported us this past year <3

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

pill friends Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

contact / help

Contact pill friends

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

pill friends recommends:

If you like pill friends, you may also like: